Easter is a time of celebration….but this year again,  I found it hard to celebrate, it saddens me that Veronika has no concept of the joy of Easter….

During last week I had been remembering the joy of my childhood, and waking up Easter Sunday ready to go on the traditional ‘easter egg hunt’ with my brothers….

Veronika had no anticipation going to bed on Saturday night, that it was Easter Sunday the following morning, and on waking and crawling up the hall she had no excitement about the easter eggs she crawled past….

(maybe its best becauase she cant eat them anyway)

I know Easter isnt all about the Eggs and chocolate….

but a part of me grieved yesterday, on Easter sunday because my daughter, who will be 5 next month, has no concept of these ‘special event days’ like Easter, Christmas and Birthdays….and i am sure that part of me was grieving yesterday, because next month Veronika will be 5 and I dont think she will have any anticipation of her Birthday coming up….and that makes me sad.

I think as a parent, for me that is one of the hardest things to emotionally deal with….a child with developmental delays, who doenst understand the reason for the celebrations…..whilst trying not to spoil the day for her brothers. I dont want the fact that this makes me sad to impact their chilhood memories, because thats not fair on them….

So what do you do to cheer yourself up?

we went for a picnic with friends at the park, and we had fish and chips from the fish shop over the road….after we could eat no more chips I asked Veronika if she would like to feed the rest to the seagulls, and she looked at me, as if to say ‘what?’, so I threw a chip and she laughed and then she threw one, she yelled and laughed the whole time, but you need to watch to the end, to see her sign ‘finished’ to the seagulls, when she had run out of chips to feed them, hmmm for some reason though i dont think seagulls understand sign language!